Starting University

When talking to people about starting university the first things most people ask you is 'are you excited?' or they say 'you'll have the time of your life'.

I was terrified.

I didn't get the grades I wanted in my A-levels and that made university seem all that little bit more scary to me. I was filled with anxiety over the fact I didn't feel smart enough and that I would fall fast behind. I have always been a perfectionist and so for me those thoughts I was having were hard to overcome in my head.

I have also never been the type of person who was good with change. I spent the majority of my summer anticipating the big move to university, going onto the next chapters of my life. Saying goodbye to the people I love most was difficult and it is still hard to be apart from them. I miss spending time with the close friends I made in my life, but they too now live miles from home. It can be lonely, even though I know the goodbye is not forever. However, not having that safety network of people who have been there for you through all the good and bad times in your life can be daunting and lonely. Most of all, I would say not having your Mum there with your dinner waiting on the dinner table when you come home or you having to do your own washing, really makes you appreciate all the things your family did for you and makes coming home feel like you are staying in a 5 star hotel.

But it is true when people say you will meet some amazing new people in university, as I know I have. I have settled into life on my own and I am learning about a subject I love, so I guess life is going okay.